hit that? which one?

sometimes you just wish that you can just disappear at the very moment when you reach your boiling point. whether it'll be with due respect to anger or exhaustion.

it is always good to know that when you are about to do a task, you know that it will be worth it. worth your time, worth your effort, everything worth working for. but i do not know with this time. it makes me now think if i really get to have this chance to achieve one of my dreams someday. unfortunately, exhaustion brings me to the thought that i am not made for this. i now think that i really am really really idealistic, and i think there's nothing wrong with it... way back then. but now, i just do not get it. it is really fine to dream and hope to hit it big. that's the norm, that's every other people think, that's human nature. but i think, when we idealize to have something, to do something for ourselves, we should also think if that will be realistic enough for our spots here below the heavens. it maybe thought that if it's something that we are to have and to hold or is it something to be just for our eyes. but sometimes, even though we know that it is not for us, we tend to fight for what we want, what we believe we deserve, and what we believe is meant for us. but, how do we know if it's really for us? how do we know when to fight and when to let go?

anyway, i am just tired. hahaha.. never mind! sweet dreams to all. may this blog be one of those fleeting memories of yours. and i know it is. nyahaha:p