a daughter's letter

dear papa,

MALIGAYANG BATI! :)

happy 40th birthday pa. medyo bata pa man diay ka pang knowing that i'm turning 21 this december. in short, you were 19 when you had me. ahooo! ikaw pa ha! matinik ka ba sa chicks dati? hahaha. well anyway, i hope these 40 years of your life was superb. and i hope, the next 40 years of your life will be happier than ever. i will make it happier for you. bet? hahaha!

in letters like these, it's like an SOP to say thank you at first. so pa, THANK YOU. thank you for your existence, for your love, for your care, for your guidance. basta tanan na. i will always be happy having you. though it wasn't always the best ride that we catch, you always manage to make these rides enjoyable. the up's and down's we've been through will never be included in my regrets' list. thanks for never making me feel any less than the other people, you and mama always do that. that's something people can envy from me. :p
pa, although there have been times that i disappoint you for not following you, please remember that never was a time that i forgot every little thing that you and mama say. it's just sometimes.. i have to do it my way. (rason. haha. sorry na.) you've been my inspiration to push through on things. to believe that there is more than what's here and now. to aim higher at every target. you, mama, and jan2 will always be enough to keep me going.

i always wanted and dreamed to give you better than everything you have right now. i want you to see other things that i think you deserve to have. i want you to have it all. i want you to have someone that you'll grow old with for i know my care and love for you is different with the warmth of love from that special someone. i want you to take you on a trip to see other places and not just settle for what you see day by day. i want you to get all of it because i know you want it and you deserve it. you're my hero and i want to be your hero too. that's why i need you at my side every step of the way.

you'd always be the number 1 man in my life. number 1 lang pa kay malay mo magka-lablyp ko.. may number 2 na. hahaha. and i remember.. pa, i always have it in my mind. what you said when i was in second year in college: "mahalin man gani ang bungi, ikaw pa na kumpleto imong ngipon. so, ayaw pagdali." thanks for those lines pa. i never felt any pressure to find that someone for me kay kumpleto ko'g ngipon. HAHAHAHAHA. you talk less but when you open your mouth, it's just sagad-to-the-bones words. i love you for that pa. i'd always be proud to be called jim-girl kay magkamukha daw ta. (swerteha mo pa ui! kamukha mo ko. haha) i'm still your side kick pa. kahit na ingon nila, maldito kag maldita tang duha. sige lang, basta magkasinabtanay lang ta. haha.
so i guess, you can't read these words.. you know i've never been a good talker. i'm better in scribbling my thoughts. enjoy my gift. and you know i do and will always love you. happy birthday to my macho man! shot na ta pang! :))

wanted: BUNALLIH

the first time i saw this face, i thought he was an addict. the curly, long hair with weird blonde color on it made me think he was not someone i can interact with. haha! the first meeting can never be considered as a memorable one since we never had the chance to appreciate each other. we hated each other. maybe we both had the same idea in mind and that is, to graduate as soon as possible so as to get rid of each other's faces. haha. i remember he gave me that "annoyed look" when i cracked my first joke on him. i never thought that someone cannot even appreciate that joke, that was the best joke i heard in my life. but now i know, he was just so cynical and had this very bad temper way back then. haha.

but as days go by, we see each other getting out of each other's shells. i never thought that there was more than that curly, long, blonde hair portrays. he made me realized that not all addict-looking type of guys are addict. hahahaha! kidding! i saw him as wonderful and unique as each of my classmates are. and oh, can i say not just unique but verrryy unique. and that is of course in a good way. he is the only person i know that can appreciate even the smallest of all things present. and in that case, making him happy will never be a problem. and i surely adore him for that. i wish i too can appreciate every little thing that surrounds me.

sometimes i think that if i was a man, i will probably wish to be him or nonetheless, just be more like him. it is like he is an improved male-version of me in some aspects that i can see. will that do? hahaha. his perseverance, goals, determination make him outstanding. i was hoping i can steal some of that from him. nyahaha. he pushed and encouraged me in ways he does not know. and i so much thank him for that. may he can encourage more people and continue to be a blessing not just to me, but to every other people. i guess, it's a sad reality that he is just so amazing at times. ahahahaha. tsk tsk. this character of him will never fail to send him at the top of his dreams and ambitions. i will be the first one to bet on this because i surely know and believe that every thing he does turns to magic.

be that as it may, he will have a long but doubtlessly, a successful journey in this generation. i place my confidence in him. and i will be one of those that will be happy for him. i would like to rest my case with a bang, meet the very man, my boombastic HEART.

p.s.: lucky you. you have me. ahahahahah! :))