they say i'm brave, i'm tough, i'm strong. and yes, i am. too brave that i cannot let my self be humbled down and tries to prove that i need no one except for those people who keeps me breathing. too tough that i can act that i don't need anyone's accompaniment. and too strong to hide of what's real and show what's needed to be shown (just like the SOP... a standard operating procedure).
i tend to believe that there's really no difference between REAL strong and PLAYING strong. it is because with those different ways, one cannot differentiate which is which. very well said, very much true. but do we know what happens to the one playing strong? and the one who is really strong? first, the one who's really strong does not need any reason to be strong because the personality itself is strong enough and the one who is playing gets a hard time looking for reasons why it needs to be strong (lucky enough if it can gather a thousand reasons for a minute of getting strong). second, the one who's really strong does not have any expiration at all. thus, the one who's playing the character can get low and get back to the zero again. but despite of all the differences, both see each other at an intersection. both see and live the tale of the-strong-shall-live-and-the-weak-shall-die.
sometimes i caught my self in a deep-thinking scenario. i was always thinking if maybe, if possible, if someone will let me choose and will let me live my choice, will i choose to be the strongest or the weakest. i know most of the people will choose being the strongest, OF COURSE. what a piece of a crap question you got there, dude! but, i think if i'll choose for my self, i would choose to be the weakest. surprisingly, pathetically true! it's not that i choose that to be different, it's just that i think there's something good about it. go ahead and check my wickedness!
when you are the weakest, you got only two things for you. a ROOM and a PATH. but before anything else, what is being weak? well... for me, when you are called to be the weakest, you are not capable of doing things great (it necessarily don't have to be great, but at least something good or just satisfying somehow), unworthy for anything, and very much not competitive enough to live a life a human should least accomplish. and with that, it goes to say that you being the weakest is actually also you being the worst. so what's a weakest and the worst person has got? yeah, as said he has a room and a path. a ROOM, it's actually a room for improvements. yes, really. it has a sign on its door saying: "only improvements allowed!" nice, isn't it? precisely the point, only improvements. it is because when you are the weakest and the worst you have no single chance of getting worse anymore because you are the WORST and you have no a chance of getting weaker because you are the weakest, remember? next, a PATH. since you are bound to stay at the lowest point that no one would dare to go, you only have a path that leads to only one direction... and it's only getting UP (index finger pointing up! just like number 1). you can no longer go to any lower points because you are at your lowest spot. just to end my backfire, when you are the weakest, you get the chance to be better and just better and just be really, really better and be someone's inspiration, perhaps.
it's like one of the american idol's judges, simon cowell said: "from ZERO to HERO". and a sad and alarming truth, the strongest can get to have the chance to be: "from HERO to ZERO".
...so much for this!
