it was september of 2006 when i took the entrance exam of my never-been-wished school, Mindanao State University. i just took the entrance exam for the sake of my mama's request. i filled out the form and took the exam just to satisfy the want of my mama and never even thought of the informations i wrote on that form. haha.. i never thought that it'll all be that serious, i am talking about the course choices way back then. i remember the reason why i was writing my first choice, the one i am taking right now, it was all because it looks so tough and it was known all over the university (hahaha.. foolish act! da! gaba! tagam oi!). but then, it was never an issue for me since my mama said that it'll be just 10% that i'll be enrolling to the said school. months have flown so fast, and we received the mail that i passed the exam (of course, or else it'll be a shame.. nyahaha). i never saw it as an option for me to finish my studies, not until when my mama told me that things didn't go her way, causing this to let me study to my hated school at first (*hilak moments.. haha). then, i enrolled to the school i don't like (at first) and got into a course where i never even had a single idea of what it is all about. and this course is, BS in Mechanical Engineering.
i clearly remember my first day in msu, i was wearing a pink shirt, jeans, and together with my sandals and red bag. my barkada and i were late since we went to the wrong building. therefore, we had no choice but to ride habal-habal. Funny memoir. it was all because when the driver dropped us to the building where we should suppose attend our first class, it was just steps away from the building where the driver picked us (manggaganchong driver!). our subject then was HISTORY 1. haha.. when i first set my foot at the classroom, i was kinda shocked since it was filled with boys. hahahaha.. later, we found out that we were just 3 girls in our block. i knew that it was a course for men, but i was still shocked. they all looked so scary(hahaha), i was very afraid of those faces back then. i was used with my classmates in highschool who were always clean and really fresh when you look at them. but my new classmates were soo soo soo different. they got beards! hahahaha.. i don't like them.
as weeks passed by, i just told myself to enjoy the moment. and it didn't fail me. i learned to love the school and the course in particular because of my classmates. we were like always ecstatically happy, cracking jokes here and there. we were individuals of different cultures, brought-up's, and personalities, but we all did learn to appreciate each and every one of us (chaka na! maalaala mo kaya..). but really, i loved, love, and will love our class. a lot had been changed with regards to my plan and perceptions. and i just later realized, why not try this course. besides, i started this and time is running and i want to have my dreams at my very eyes as soon as possible. plays, reports, laughters, long walks, exams, transfer of building-to-building, and the two years were just like that.
and now, i am on my third year, and things were not like before. this one is now TIGHT, HECTIC, SADISTIC, and TRAUMATIC (funny but true.. haha). i am spending half of the semester depressed since this is the first time that i got shocking results from exams. i got two zero-exams from statistics and probability (tell me how to smile.. haha)!! i never passed the two chapter exams for my subject in statics of rigid bodies. i have no assurance for my thermodynamics since i have no good background for physics and it is my hatest subject since i attended school. and the rest follows. hahaha.. they say that there are two kinds of students who enter the H Building (engineering building) they are: GAHI, students who are studying to have a grade of 1.0; and KUGIHAN, students who are studying to pass the subject. but i tell you, when i entered this building, it may now be classified into three, and the third one is: PANINGTIIL's (dili makaya sa paningkamot), we are the students who study to be able to take the removal (hahahahahaha! =)) ). but still, to look at the brighter side, i am not alone. meaning, there are a lot of students who also fails besides me (ahaha! *evil laugh). but then, i still don't take that as an excuse and i'm now again depressed (na! storya pa!).
i always believed that i'm not stupid. i know i'm knowledgeable, so-called "bright" (kasuya lang gud.. haha). but then, i just realized that being a third year engineering student of mindanao state university, being knowledgeable and bright is not enough. you have to be a GENIUS! i don't know how much hope is left for me now, but i'm still taking all the chances to pass all the subjects and get into the top of my dreams. they aren't as far as before, right?! i just got to keep on believing and praying that all my frustrations would still make me happy in the near future.
-It ain't over 'til it's over.-
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